In a world that I feel is slowly waking up and beginning to accept and celebrate women for all shapes and sizes. I thought I would write a post about body positivity, how and why I stopped hating my body. (90% of the time damn you Instagram explore page)
For me, it is a journey I have been on for as long as I can remember. Learning how to be ok with my body, I don’t have the body I really desire. I have tried for so long probably not tried everything under the sun but I have tried excessively and unsuccessfully. Going from one extreme to another, abused diet pills, cabbage soup diet and so on. I’ve been vegan for 6 months and I’m still not socially acceptable curvy. I don’t want to use the word eating disorder because I don’t think I had one but I can tell you for a long time I had eating issues. I would go entire days with barely consuming anything to the complete opposite and binging. Suffering from immense headaches and Obsessing over my weight, weighing myself 10 times a day. I mean it has been a real problem for me.
After having children my journey of self-love, body positivity has been a huge focus negatively. However, in the past few months, I have become much more comfortable with my body and my relationship with food. I don’t know if I ever will be 100% satisfied but it’s okay and I think its ok to admit that.
Throughout the year’s I’m not sure exactly when I started to become aware of food, weight and body image. But the awareness has always been there. In the back of my mind, I have always been quite conscious of how different I look. I don’t want to make excuses but I do know for a fact everybody has different genetic makeups and for some people, it is harder to lose weight, to be fit, to be toned to be healthy. I can tell you for me it has been a f-cking struggle.
Coming to the realisation that every body is different and who gives a f-ck what weight we are? Took WAY too long.
It is so important to surround yourself with people who are in love with themselves.
If you surround yourself with people who are constantly on diets, constantly talking about how fat they are when in most cases they are not overweight at all. You will start to think “omg I should be on a diet” “I’m still wearing size 16 when they’re a size 8 and they think they’re fat”. When you surround yourself with women who embrace themselves who love their curves or lack off. Women who rock what they’ve got you will start to feel a different way about yourself.
Being honest right now I never wanted to talk about this topic because I didn’t feel well equipped enough to talk about it. I didn’t feel like I had the right to talk about it. What kind of rubbish is that??? I am a woman living in the digital age where diet culture constantly tells me I am not good enough! Of course, I have a right to talk about this.
I know this sounds raw and crazy probably all over the place but this is gonna be of the most honest posts I will write about it as it is something I still struggle with. It’s easier for me to be real through my writing so whatever form this post takes shape if it’s for me or you I think it’s important to be able to talk about this and have a real conversation about body acceptance and body positivity. plus this is what my new space is all about! Discovering who you are and Embracing it.
The Body Positive Movement is a movement that encourages people to adopt more forgiving and affirming attitudes towards their bodies, with the goal of improving overall health and well-being.
What really shifted for me and what helped me not celebrate my body because I am not 100% there yet but one thing that is helping me on that journey of acceptance is yoga. I have never been a gym person my anxiety plays absolute havoc when I am running on a treadmill, I’m super paranoid, I don’t get the gym culture and I don’t look like the other people I just don’t like it.
Yet The experience I have during a 20-minute yoga session changed everything. I feel calmer, it’s not about weight loss it’s about healing my mind, body and spirit its everything I needed and still need in my life. Yoga has shown exercise and wellness to me in a new light. Workouts have become more about my mind and not my body. It was no longer that I was working out to fit into size 10 jeans or look good for a group photo it became I am working out because I need to clear my head, I need to get inspired or I need to chill my anxiety the fuck out.
The results of that (along with veganism) is I have not got skinny, I do not have a six pack or ribbed abs. Yeah, I’ve lost weight and I’m a little more flexible and stronger but that is a by-product of all the other amazing changes that were happening. The results are a calmer, more balanced me.
My Mantra: Hating yourself does not serve you anymore.
So I just wanted to share that on a very personal note if this is something that you also struggle with. If you can find something that is less about your body and more about your mind I think that is a big step in celebrating and loving your body. Yoga, spin, boxing whatever it is when you challenge yourself mentally and you have that time to focus intently on what you’re doing but not focus if that makes sense something happens to you.
Another thing I am trying for body positivity is gratitude, focusing on everything your body has done for you. For example, when I am struggling with my stomach showing under clothes. Thinking thank you stomach for carrying and birthing two children. When you stop and think about everything you have and everything your body has been through and still survived really has an impact on ourselves.
QUIT THE BODY SHAMING
You hold so much power over yourself. Where has obsessively tracking calories, weighing yourself daily? Honestly, That has gotten me nowhere! Its produced more self-loathing and I’ve missed out on so many great things. This for me is still a work in progress. I feel empowered to talk about it today and I will share more about this journey with you. Manifesting happiness along with realising that my weight, my body, my imperfections do not equate to my self-worth. I know I am growing more spirituality, healing through past trauma and I guess I just needed to get this off my chest.